right now my life sucks. i live with too teenagers who follow me like puppies. this won't last long though my landlord is going to evict them. my love of my life broke up with me i guess i would ask why but its my karma kicking me in the ass. i don't know what to do i love her so much it kills me. i have loved but not like this. the thought of another makes me want to puke. i'm a cheater but she makes me honest its weird. so right now i'm in hate mode. i hate girls, relationships, friends, roommates, that the girl i loved seems to not give two shits, that others are happy, that i am so much better to her then my roommate to his girlfriend, then my friends boyfriend is to her, that i am miserable and she is happy, that i have scars and she has none, that some fuck at my work said he wanted to x-ray me, that i sat through my highschool friends wedding with my ex being cute face at me, that she should love me for me not my roommates and job. damn it i hate and want to cry all the time. i'm not tough i'm a broken soul being repeatedly stepped on.i could comtemplaint suicide but i don't have it it in me and i would miss her. i am the pathetic piece of shit i hate.